Staying with our theme of kick-ass confidence, let’s cross a whole ‘nother line and talk frankly about a subject that’s a little taboo: Botox, injectables, and beauty that hurts like a bitch. I’m not one to sugarcoat things, so I’m pretty open about my love for a little medi-spa help here and there, but I’ve found that I get a lot of backlash because of the business that I run. For some reason, people tend to think that because I preach self love, empowerment, and success that it’s hypocritical of me to care so much about the way that my face looks that I’m willing to stick a needle in it. Let me just say this: if you start from a place of loving yourself fully, there’s absolutely nothing wrong with doing things that add to your self confidence and help bring out an even sassier, sexier feeling version of that wonderful self.

Beauty enhancements, whether they be in the form of makeup, skin care, or yes – even shoving needles into your skin – are not about fixing yourself or changing who you are. It’s the same way that Beyonce struts around in insane outfits on the regular – it’s about taking that amazing inner confidence that you already have and shooting it through the goddamn roof. If you already love yourself, why not add a little extra sparkle? On the flip side, there’s also nothing wrong with aging naturally, going makeup free, or just really not being that into beauty. The point is: do what makes you feel ready to take on the world, whatever that is.

For me, that’s a lot of things. I’m actually not super into makeup – my usual routine is a good face oil, natural zinc based sunscreen, a cheek stain, Bare Minerals foundation, a good mascara, and a tough as nails long lasting lip stain. I spend approximately 6 minutes getting ready in the morning (I wash my hair once a week, sue me) and throughout my day I’m working from home, hustling to meetings, riding horses, hitting a quick workout class, and trying to make it to drinks or dinner after, so I both need something that holds up and is incredibly low maintenance. That’s honestly where my obsession with medical beauty procedures really came from: I figured that the better my skin looked with nothing on, the more low maintenance my beauty routine could be!

Spot on. After deciding to make the jump from skin care products to serious syringes and other things that look a lot like torture devices, my skin looked so killer sans makeup that my confidence shot through the roof. I started wanting to go to the grocery store more just to walk around. I also started to say ‘yes’ to more last minute social plans, feeling like even if I was coming straight from the gym or the stables that I could wash my face and still feel glowy. Don’t get me wrong – I loved my face just the way it was. However, I am a fair skinned (similar to the Twilight vampires when I wear highlighter), freckled little thing who spends an insane amount of time in the sun and my skin is very prone to hyperpigmentation (particularly in the form of a melasma mustache, which is quite fetching) and loads of tiny little lines. I’m not ashamed of these things, but I enjoy it more when they’re not there.

Deciding to mess around with something a little more serious, and more permanent, when it comes to beauty was a daunting task. I spent hours researching and finding the best technicians and products before committing. I finally settled on two main things to address: getting rid of my hyperpigmentation, and mellowing out the herd of laugh lines that had formed around my eyes. I ended up following a woman on Instagram who did beautiful work and after messaging with her and finding out that she was in my area, I decided to take the plunge. The technician I chose ended up being not only talented and safe, but just a lovely human, and put me right at ease. She practices on her self and she is gorgeous, which didn’t hurt, plus she shared every one of my sentiments about beauty being a source of empowerment for women and an outward expression of inner confidence. Totally my kind of girl. She suggested a micro-needling session with a concentrated hyperpigmentation lightening solution, followed by a small amount of Botox around my eyes and between my eyebrows, and Voluma (a long lasting filler) in my cheeks to ‘lift up’ my face. I’m not going to lie you guys; the micro-needling was outrageously painful even with numbing cream. But I’d do it a hundred more times. After the procedure, I swear my pigmentation decreased by half, and my skin has honestly never looked better in my life. I could not be more happy.

Check out the before and afters:

(including some no makeup comparisons, a selfie where I think I’m looking seductive but I really just look confused, and a professional photo taken three weeks post treatment where I’m not joking – I only have on mascara, eyebrow powder, and lipstick – and good lighting…the glow is that good)

Before (obviously!) – Besides the fact that I had gross gym hair and zero makeup, here is my before photo for the world to see. As you can see, lot’s of sun damage despite my obsessive use of sunscreen and lines from my constant laughing at myself.

After! This is about a week and a half after. The micro-needling and botox took about one more week to fully kick in, but the results were pretty amazing at this point. Once again, sweaty gym hair. Sorry (but not really).

I was feelin’ myself pretty hard three to four weeks post treatment. These photos I had minimal makeup and zero retouching, and I felt AMAZING.

There was nothing wrong with how I looked before, but I feel like my skin is now a better picture of how I feel on the inside. It looks youthful, glowing, and radiant…which is how I feel in my soul! Confidence comes in many forms, and there are a million ways to express it. For me, feeling like the best possible version of myself is huge. Also, with my crazy busy schedule and running around all day everyday, this once or twice a year kind of beauty routine really works for me.

What do you guys think about Botox, injectables, and other minor cosmetic procedures? I know it’s a heated topic and I want to hear your opinions! Also, if you’re interested in trying this out and you’re in Southern California, I highly recommend Drea Hull-Heppner. She hosts private beauty parties as well as just opened Bloom Aesthetics in San Diego (find them on Facebook here ) – Drea is not only a wizard with facials, fillers, and Botox, but she’s also an awesome entrepreneur, a badass working mom of two, and has built her own success story. You’ll definitely love your face after seeing her, but you’ll also want to pick her brain about starting a business, creating a success mindset, and getting empowered.

Ok, this is going to be a fun week. After recent more intense subjects, I’m pretty ready for a week of fun, uplifting, super girly and maybe slightly taboo/crazy blog posts. The theme of this week is all about kick-ass confidence; we’re going to talk feeling sexy & empowered, rocking body confidence, getting real on botox and sticking needles in your face, and how to find your ‘thing’. Obviously, I want to start off with a bang,

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  1. Find out what you’re good at
  2. Choose a career where you can use those skills
  3. Work hard, climb the ladder, make money
  4. Use that money to do things you actually enjoy
  5. Try to carve out time outside of work for the “important things”

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